Do you remember the scene in the movie Home Alone when he realizes he is alone and he starts running around his house with his hands in the air screaming? That's how I feel. I feel like I am running through life with my hands in the air getting nothing done, and screaming only no one hears me. It's the worst feeling in the world. My depression and anxiety are getting the better of me and I am not accomplishing anything in life. My marriage is in a bad spot. I am so focused on everything else that I have let it go downhill worse than it already has. I am trying to do school at the community college at night but not getting the grades or the time to spend to even make it worth my while. I don't want to deal with things in my life so I waste my time on social media or binge watching shows. So how do you get out of a crappy situation that you have put yourself in? How do I change my ways and fix myself? I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. People drastically change their eating habits or exercise habits and lifestyle habits all the time. They say enough is enough and put their foot down and change their life for the better. I'm so busy running around like a crazy person that I can't put my foot down. If I got on my Mary Poppins scale it would say "Hopelessly lost and needs to find her way" or something like that.
I think I need to first clean my house and my surroundings. There have been studies done that show that when there is clutter or chaos around you it tends to make your mind feel cluttered and chaotic. So first I would do that.
Once that is done I need to figure out what I am going to change or get rid of to make my life less stressful.
Third I will need to make a schedule and stick with it.
Fourth I need to set up an exercise routine and follow through with it. I didn't blog over the summer but I had an awesome routine of walking 2 miles every night. I wasn't losing weight but it made me feel amazing and my chloesterol levels went down.
I am hopeful but I have to put my words into actions or I am going to fall to pieces. Wish me luck!
